I have a dirty little confession to make: I hate my legs.
I think I’ve probably hated my legs for as long as I can remember. My knee caps
are tilted to the outside so I’m a little knock-kneed. Ever since I was 9 I’ve
been self-conscious about my feet turning in (though I’ve pretty well cured
myself of that with years of purposeful effort). My legs are also a
little—shall we say—chunky. Oh, and did I mention that I’m a recluse who never
sees the light of day? (How did you think I keep up with all these blogs?) So
they’re also pale, with vibrant blue veins that would make a needle-toting
nurse squeal with joy. All in all, a very bad picture.
So maybe you’ll be surprised (or appalled) when I tell
you what I bought the other day: a white eyelet skirt that comes above my
knees. I almost never wear clothes that don’t shroud my legs in an
unoffending sheath. That day, however, I decided that it was time to face the
fear and hatred. And the thing was less than $5 at Kohl’s so who’s gonna argue
with that?
How could I be so bold and brazen? How dare I expose
those lily-white-knock-knees to an unsuspecting world? Simple—I decided to stop
taking myself so seriously. Honestly, who is staring at my legs (except you,
right now)? I’ve been watching other girls for a long time now, and I figure
that if they’re brave enough to show off what they’ve got then I can be brave
too.
Plus, there’s a deeper aspect to all this. When you think
of all the people out there who have been burned, tortured, starved, or
otherwise deformed, what right do I have to be self-conscious about my legs? I
had a look at what real knock knees look like and it shocked me. There are more important things to care
about.
What are you
self-conscious about?
How does that
stack up to real deformities and is it denying you really cute additions to
your wardrobe?
lol, i fuggin hate my legs, thats why im not bringing shorts to camp :3 (also i dont rly like my shorts but i might throw them in if it werent for my terribly ugly legs). u do have good points for sure. but mine are even worse than what you described lol. theyre ghost-white (altho fsr u cant see any veins), but worse than that, because ghost-white legs would be nice if they were smooth and beautiful and not see-thru, is that i get really bad razor burn and i cant really find a way to cure it 3: and, since i dont tan (i mean, i cant tan), theres nothing i can do to hide it. im thinking sometime i should brave it and get them waxed. cuz shaving just beats them up pretty bad :/ i guess because my skin is so sensitive. it is also really hard for me to shave so i like miss half my legs every time rofl. basically my legs are ugly as heck. i have a lot of cute short skirts, in fact that is the majority of the 'pants' side of my wardrobe, but i always wear tights with them. which in some ways is cuter, but id like to be able to wear bare legs if i wanted to. meh. haha. wtf did i just go on for like how long talking about my legs no one cares rofl. but yeah i guess it was kinda on my mind cuz im going to camp tomorrow and im going to try pulling off pants the whole entire time? lol oh well haha.
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain, Christine!
ReplyDeleteJust remember that you probably think about your looks about 90% more than anyone else does (I don't know if that's encouraging for depressing!). Have fun at camp, try waxing, spray-on tans and whatever else floats your boat, but in the end remember that God made you beautiful--even your legs.
I've been self-conscious about... pretty much everything. But, like you, I've decided to stop taking myself so seriously. This way, I can focus on the things that actually matter, and if I'm having a bad hair day or I come out of the restroom with toilet paper stuck to my shoe, I can just laugh at myself. It makes life merrier, too!
ReplyDeleteOh, and I completely forgot to respond to your comment in my last one. I really like the idea of a doing a group blog like that! I think I'll pray about it and sleep on it, and then I'll let you know for sure. =)